I don't know what I'm doing. Getting rid of the one thing I hold most dear. Making him feel like shit just to prove my own point. I walked away from him, said now you can be alone. Why couldn't I just let him be alone. I freak out all the time because I expect something of him. Why do I do this? I don't know but it is a very bad trait to hold on my behalf. I miss him a lot. Miss his face. His hands. His body. The way he looks at me and I feel like melting. The way he holds me like I've never been held before. His kisses so soft and wonderful. His arms so strong. I miss every movement, every expression. I'm falling in love with this man and it hurts me to feel this regret.