Davidulanty,

Inspiration is the key to all happiness.
I definitely like that feeling of greatness. I think babbling makes
us all more interesting I would have to say. ADD Ha! don't we all
have it.. Yes! Finding ones self is always a great feeling. I had it once,
in a good time, To know yourself is always a good trait to have
it helps make it so that no one can puncture your oneness.
I don't think you are going crazy my friend I think it is simply that you
are growing. Changing. Learning. There is one thing about life that
I do not enjoy and that is that everything can not be a book, or a movie.
You know we always watch movies and read books and they always
take my breath away wishing for something great like that to happen to me.
I am always comparing reality to fiction, I have to stop but it feels so good.
That is insanity my friend haha. But I also think that the world has lost it's mind.
It's too conservative for it's own damn good.

enjoying nothingness,
bailey

I hope some day someone will hold me, for twenty minutes straight, with not an ounce of selfishness to it. I believe now that love is a tricky bastard and you have to weve your way around it. It's confusing, lovely, and sometimes fucked but I still want it. Right now I know I just need to love myself. I am learning. It is the hardest thing I will ever endure but I will prevail. I don't need the world to accept me. I need to accept me. I already like the personality(accept for the crazy part)all I need is to love my being. Time will tell...

I'm really glad I found out who he really was. I can see him on the inside. Breaks my heart thought, of course it would. I'm glad it wasn't love. One hell of a ride. Can't believe he went back to her...but than again now that I think about it he was probably still fucking her the whole time.

I don't know what I'm doing. Getting rid of the one thing I hold most dear. Making him feel like shit just to prove my own point. I walked away from him, said now you can be alone. Why couldn't I just let him be alone. I freak out all the time because I expect something of him. Why do I do this? I don't know but it is a very bad trait to hold on my behalf. I miss him a lot. Miss his face. His hands. His body. The way he looks at me and I feel like melting. The way he holds me like I've never been held before. His kisses so soft and wonderful. His arms so strong. I miss every movement, every expression. I'm falling in love with this man and it hurts me to feel this regret.

So I am not quite sure what to do with myself. This beautiful man whom I thought was falling in love with me has not seen me in 2 days. He will not. He also will not really talk to me, giving me simple answered replies when I text him beautiful shit. I don't know what I have done. Why did something so wonderful go so sour in an amount of 6 hours? One minute I'm saying good bye my love and the next I am sitting wondering where he went and why he wont talk to me. I am confused.